I have had something on my mind for a very long time. In a word, writing. I guess you could say I am living that dream now with these blogs, but I want to go big. Go big or go home, that is my motto. I have always wanted to write a book.
One of the ideas I had was a life story of me living with A.C.C. I guess my plan now is to extrapolate these blogs into one big narrative with chapters. Another idea I had was to write a novel where the main protagonist deals with living with A.C.C. One of my favorite things to do is to read true crime novels. I love to watch Cold Case Files on A&E, or American Justice, which is on the same channel. Bio has a lot of great shows like Mystery Detectives and The New Detectives.
My idea for the story is the main character is a detective looking for a serial killer, The reason why he became a cop was his father was a cop and was killed in the line of duty. I was thinking of titles for the novel, like on the trail of the devil. I had some others, but they all sounded pretentious, or melodramatic.
Another idea I had came from my love of reading Stephen King. He is my favorite author. It is along the same lines where the main character is a cop, but I would throw in a mental hospital that was closed years ago and now they are condos that are haunted and killings are rampant. He must solve the mystery. I have one big problem. That problem is confidence to write. I have these great ideas, but when I go to write them, I chicken out and all these things come into my head. Things like, you were never a good reader, or writer, what are you thinking? Another is, you have A.C.C., you aren’t smart like the masters King, Poe, Dickens, or Clancy. There is a book called, “The Magic Of Thinking Big.” They call this action excusitis.
A dear friend says I should just write and worry about the form and flow later. I wish I didn’t hate myself. Well, that is too harsh. I wish my self esteem was far better than it is. What do you guys think of the ideas? Until next time?